When I was feeling like a failure as a leader of a certain project, I reflected on my failure. Looking back on these reflections I realize not only how self-condemning I can get (not good), but also how insightful I can be (good thing). If you are a leader of something (and you just might be), there might be something to learn in the next fews posts called, "Confessions of a failed leader." If you are vulnerable to be depressed by e-confessions, then click here for a few days until I get this out of my system.
1. Leadership, as I understand it, requires a sacrifice I am currently unwilling to make.
2. There is no financial reward or amount of fame that can replace what I lose when I decide to lead. If I am going to lead I am going to have to find a damn good reason for it.
3. Leadership is not for me. It does nothing for me. Therefore, I am not prepared to lead. Since leadership won’t change, it’ll have to wait for me to change, if that were possible.
4. Leadership requires a love for a vision, and I’m too selfish to love a vision.
5. I can’t lead because I require praise for it.
6. I can’t lead because I don’t know where I am going.
7. I can’t lead without violating someone else’s rights, so I shouldn’t lead.
8. Leaders hold in their hands something of value to their followers. My hands are weak, rough, and clumsy.
9. I can’t lead because I don’t know how to respect other people’s valuables, their trust, their hearts, and their passions.
10. I can’t lead because I don’t know what to do with my heart, let alone someone else’s.