Fear and Death

First of all, thanks for all the prayers and concern. This is a hard time and to know that there are people praying is a comfort.

This morning, my father became more awake than at any other point since this began. His heart rate and blood pressure have stablized, though they are seriously helped by two pressers - meds that regulate blood pressure. He is still on hte highest oxygen at the highest pressure. His kindeys are still not functioning. Although there are a couple minor improvements, nothing about the biggest picture gives any hope.

But he can communicate and that makes a difference. He can shake his heart. So, we can ask him questions.

This morning he was trying to speak. No one can speak with a breathing tube, so we begin this game of 20 questions. In short, he's afraid. He is a afraid of death. Most people are.

Doctor's in , gotta go.